Firsts and Lasts

Just after midnight marks the first anniversary of John Robert’s death – one week.

Today marks the last time we heard from him … by phone.

In June will be our first Family Reunion without John Robert present.

I can’t remember the last time I hugged him.

October will bring his first birthday since his death.

Today was the last time I called his phone just to get his voicemail message and hear his voice.

December will be our first Christmas without John.

A few hours ago was the last time I cried.

And as I read all of your emails and responses I cannot communicate strongly enough how this ministers to my soul. God has surrounded me with such love and support. I wish I could address every one of you … and maybe one day I will. For now, please accept my generic ‘thank you’ to everyone.

Tomorrow we travel to New Orleans to be with my parents for a few days. Pray for us.

I’m pretty much numb at this point … except for occasional breaks of pain. Maggy is the same.



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