A Beginner’s Prayer

The following is a prayer that is in a book for those recovering from addiction via a twelve step program. Whether we are in a twelve step program or not, we are all recovering from the effects of sin in our life and the erosion of faith brought about by our inability to resist temptation. So, I think this is a prayer for anyone who wants to live for God but finds themselves starting over once again. Don’t give up. Out here, hope remains.

~John

Lord, I want to love You, yet I am not sure.

I want to trust You, yet I am afraid of being taken in.

I know I need You, but I am ashamed of the need.

I want to pray, but I am afraid of being a hypocrite.

I need my independence, yet I fear to be alone.

I want to belong, yet I must be myself.

Take me, Lord, yet leave me alone.

Lord, I believe; help me with my unbelief.

O Lord, if You are there,

You do understand, don’t You?

Give me what I need, but leave me free to choose.

Help me work it out my own way, but don’t let me go.

Let me understand myself, but don’t let me despair.

Come unto me, O Lord, I want You there.

Lighten my darkness, but don’t dazzle me.

Help me to see what I need to do,

and give me strength to do it.

O Lord, I believe; help me with my unbelief.

 

From The Twelve Step Prayer Book written and compiled by Bill P. and Lisa D.