My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart,
my portion forever. ~Psalm 73:26
Periods of spiritual weakness are an expected part of the landscape of the Christian journey. Because we are human beings there are times of intense faith followed by lethargic moments when we sometimes question our faith and feel far from God. This is a common experience of even the most admired people of the Bible.
I don’t know if you’re like me, but I never see it coming. Like the prodigal I awaken to realize that I’ve allowed my heart to drift without the direction of the Holy Spirit. I suddenly become aware that the intentional quiet times of prayer have been replaced with hurried sentiments and urgent requests uttered through the busy maze of each day.
How long has it been since I updated my prayer journal? That long?
When have I last read the Bible? Not for a lesson or sermon but for my own heart?
When did that angry sarcastic attitude come back to inhabit my thinking?
There’s a haunting scene in Robert Boyd Munger’s brilliant My Heart, Christ’s Home that takes place at the doorway of the living room.
I remember one morning rushing downstairs, eager to be on my way. I passed the living room and noticed that the door was opened. Looking in, I saw a fire in the fireplace and Jesus was sitting there. Suddenly in dismay I thought to myself, “He is my guest. I invited Him into my Heart! He has come as my Savior and Friend, and yet I am neglecting Him.”
I stopped, turned and hesitantly went in. With downcast glance, I said, “Master, forgive me. Have you been here all these mornings?” “Yes,” He said, “I told you I would be here every morning to meet with you. Remember, I love you. I have redeemed you at great cost. I value your friendship. Even if you cannot keep quiet time for your own sake, do it for mine.”
How many mornings has Christ awaited me at the place of prayer, but I was too busy? When we are in the spiritual doldrums God is never the weak one. We are. It is imperative that we find our strength in Him.
But I will sing of Your strength and will joyfully proclaim Your faithful love in the morning. For You have been a stronghold for me, a refuge in my day of trouble. ~Psalm 59:16
There’s only one way to regain your strength. Stop trying so hard and start trusting sincerely. Your strongest days are ahead when you finally get out of the whirlwind, sit still in His presence, and listen. He’s waiting for you, no matter how long it’s been.
Thanks for reading.